looking for yaoi
with real hateful rape.

no falling in love afterword
no Stockholm syndrome
no "my lover raped me" few minute later "its all right i forgive you"

I mean the rape rape, like the hateful, vengeful, coerced, BAD rape

anything?

Zankoku na Kami ga Shihaisuru
Saezuru Tori wa Habatakanai the guy was hatefully raped when he was a kid. Now he pretty much enjoys it.
Hua Hua You Long The guy hates it, idk if it'd turn to love though.

Shisei no Otoko, maybe?

Hmmm, Zange could fit. He was raped when he was a kid, now he acts like a prostitue.

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K n e e l .... This is the difference between your and my eye-level.
Rai from Noblesse

Tetsu x Rika. Should read the prequel first though.

I am bumping a very old thread

Hana to Ryuu
Under Grand Hotel

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K n e e l .... This is the difference between your and my eye-level.
Rai from Noblesse

Quote from mybackhurtz

Zankoku na Kami ga Shihaisuru
Saezuru Tori wa Habatakanai the guy was hatefully raped when he was a kid. Now he pretty much enjoys it.
Hua Hua You Long** The guy hates it, idk if it'd turn to love though.**

Yes, it turns into love at the very end of the novel 😃